Is it weird?

Is it weird and typical of me to say that I can imagine me spending a long, long time with my boyfriend Will? I know that I'm still young and I'm only 20, but I really feel this way. I feel like we were meant to be, it was meant to be. I think it's weird that I added him as a friend on Teenspot when honestly, I rarely add people on there myself. It's like something possesed me to do so. I'm so happy that I did it though because now I have him. I've never been so happy in my life and so content. It just feels right when I'm with him.

In the past, I've been treated wrong. I've been abused and put down by my past boyfriends. I thought I was in love, but I was blinded. I just wanted to have a companion in life. I like the feeling of being wanted, I overlooked the horrible things in our relationships and waited for the good times which were sometimes very rare. Will has shown me what a real relationship is. He's shown me what love is. Love is wanting the other person to be happy no matter what, communicating, treating each other with respect, being honest and many more things. Our relationship has all of those. I've never communicated as well as I do with Will as with my boyfriends in the past. I can tell him anything and let him know how I feel about certain things and he doesn't get mad. I feel comfortable around him, I can just be myself and I know that he'll love me for who I am.

He makes me more happy than sad, which was what my first boyfriend had led me to do. I've only been upset with him a few times but they were things that I got over with time. I also made a really big mistake last year and he forgave me and he still continues to trust me. I am so thankful for that, I don't think he realizes how much I am. I learned my lesson and will never make that mistake again. I don't want to lose him because he's one of the greatest things that has happened to me in life.

When we're together all I can do is smile. He still gives me butterflies and I know he will for quite some time. I want to spend a long time with him. I've even thought of how he'd be as a father. Yes... I have, I admit that. And I think he'd be a great one. He may have grown up having a rough childhood but that doesn't mean that his kids have to as well. I know that if he were to move up north things would get much better. Will has changed alot since his childhood years and he's gained a lot of wisdom from that. I know that he is truly a good person. I know that with all of my heart. I know that he would want a good life for his kids and I think that we would make a great family.

Being away from him sucks though, but it's just something that I have to deal with. I look forward to the next time I see him because I know that every time we see each other it just becomes even more amazing. And I look forward to the day when there will be no more distance and we can be with each other forever.